Next To Nieveaux- Part Two

Here’s the second installment of Next to Nieveaux, for your reading pleasure!

Princess Picclapena Breaches The Curve

Picclapena looked at Ezra skeptically, but his face seemed to reveal no trace of guile. Well, she thought, what could it hurt to just go outside for a moment? And the churla was indeed extremely cute. She hesitated and then made up her mind.

“Okay,” she said. “How do I do it?”

“You just do it. Watch.” Ezra stretched his arm beyond the Curve, and it seemed to penetrate an invisible plane.

Picclapena gathered all her courage and stuck her right arm through the plane. Ezra smiled approvingly. Then, his eyes got bigger, and he seemed startled.

“What is it?” asked Picclapena.

“Uh, nothing, nothing. I just thought I saw something on your arm when you pushed it through the Curve. No problem.”

“Oh, yes. That is just a birthmark.” Picclapena pushed the right sleeve of her gown up above her elbow and showed Ezra a small, cross-shaped lavender-colored mark.

“Yes, yes. I see that now. Do you want to go further before that churla runs away?”

Picclapena, momentarily distracted from her task by the observation of her birthmark, took another deep breath. She wrinkled her forehead, scrunched up her nose, closed her eyes, stamped her foot, and plunged through the plane.

When she opened her eyes, she found that she was Outside the Curve. She had not really expected it to work, but there she was. She looked around curiously. The first thing she noticed was that there was no snow on the ground. Next, she saw a clump of trees growing nearby. They looked so solid. The roundness of their trunks, the roughness of their bark, the subtly assorted colors that covered them- everything about the trees was so much lusher and more nuanced than the trees in Nieveaux.

In that moment of distraction, the churla had scuttered away. Disappointed, Picclapena looked around her for someone to advise her on what to do next. She looked towards the Curve but could no longer see Ezra. In fact, to her dismay, she could not even see the Curve. She stood on the green ground under the trees, trying to figure out what to do… and trying desperately not to cry. She stood there for a rather unreasonable amount of time waiting for someone to come by, but nobody happened to cross her path.

As she waited, Picclapena noticed that something strange was happening. The sky, which had been just as bright and blue as the sky in Nieveaux earlier in the day, was changing. Cotton candy colors swirled around the clouds. The colors and the play of the shapes in the air made Picclapena think of a kaleidoscope she played with when she was very young. The colors in the sky, though, were so much softer, warmer, and more amorphous than the garish, sharp-edged tones in her kaleidoscope. In fact, the colors in the sky were more than just colors. They engaged more than just Picclapena’s eyes. They immersed her. They danced in the air like graceful ballerinas. Picclapena wanted to fling her arms into the air and join their corps. She thought she could almost hear the notes and themes of a sweet, pure, exquisite symphony wafting gently like visual music from the sky. As Picclapena watched the beautiful color ballet, nothing else seemed to matter beyond the glory of the sky.

Soon, though, the colors faded into a dull grey. As the sky darkened, the evening grew cold. Almost before she realized it, Picclapena noticed that the sky was black. She could not see well enough to find her way back to the Curve. She realized she was hungry and tired. She fished around and found the cookie she always kept in her pocket in case of emergencies. She started eating the cookie while she thought about how she could find her way back to Nieveaux. Just as she was eating the last crumbs of her cookie, she spied a churla a few feet ahead of her. The churla’s bright white fur seemed to glow, providing a sort of beacon to light the path ahead of her.

Picclapena inched her way towards the churla. When she got close to it, she exclaimed, “Oh, you cute, dear little thing.” She reached out to pet it. Suddenly, the churla’s white fur turned a bright pink color. The churla smiled a terrible smile, revealing pointed, serrated teeth. The churla reared back to hurl itself at Picclapena, who screamed and turned to run away.

“There really is no sense in that,” said Ezra, as he stepped between Picclapena and the churla. “Churlas are much faster than you could ever hope to be. Best not to rattle them to begin with. Once they have a notion to attack, it is not easy to put them back in their place. Look what’s coming now.”

Picclapena looked and saw a whole colony of vibrant pink churlas approaching. Panicking, she began to climb a nearby tree. Ezra nodded approvingly. “That’s the ticket,” he said. Churlas are afraid of heights. He did not seem particularly bothered by the churlas himself.

“What are you doing here?” Picclapena yelled from the tree. “Where did you come from? You were there and then you weren’t. I didn’t know where you had gone.”

“No, dear. You were there and then you weren’t. I stayed exactly where I was.” Ezra looked up at her in the tree. The churlas, seeing there was no chance for a quick meal of organic princess, decided to go in search of easier prey. The color of their fur transformed back to brilliant white. “So, you can’t stay up there forever. What are you going to do?”

“I want to go home!” Picclapena cried, as she scrambled down the tree trunk. As she did so, she scraped her shin on the jagged bark and exclaimed in pain when she saw thin stripes of blood seep from her skin.

“Well, it is not that easy,” replied Ezra. Now that you have been outside the Curve this long, you cannot just go back home. At least, not right away. You have to earn your way back in. You must first find something to bring back that will make life better in Nieveaux.”

“You mean, I have to find some kind of magic to get back to Nieveaux?” asked Picclapena.

“I never said anything about magic. You just need to bring back something that will make life better in Nieveaux.”

“What could there possibly be out here that is better than Nieveaux? It is scary and dangerous out here.”

“True enough… maybe you are right. Maybe there is nothing better out here. Surely this green grass isn’t better than the snow-covered ground in Nieveaux. Surely the everlasting light in Nieveaux is better than the night here Outside the Curve. And you have the royal orchestra in Nieveaux to play music. Surely, that is just as good as the symphony of the sunset?”

“Well,” frowned Picclapena doubtfully, “I suppose those things out here are very nice, but I am not sure they are worth it. Those churlas are scary!”

“Yes, but sometimes something wonderful lies just below scary,” Ezra mused. “I’m not sure that’s the case with churlas, but why don’t you do some exploring and see what you find out here Next to Nieveaux? After all, you cannot go back home until you find something of value to bring with you. You might as well get started”.”

“But there is this strange darkness, and I can’t see where I am going and I am very tired,” protested Picclapena. “Will the light ever come back to the sky?”

“Yes, in ten hours or so, it will be morning, and the light will return to the sky. You will see the path before you clearly. In the meantime, you might want to rest and gather strength because you are going to need a tremendous amount of power. It is an arduous task to find something wonderful to bring back to Nieveaux.”

“Maybe I should wait until the sky lights up again. But then I will have lost ten hours that I could have been searching! What is the wisest thing to do?” asked Picclapena.

“What do you think is the best thing for you to do?” asked Ezra.

“I don’t know! I just don’t know! That’s why I am asking.”

“You know better than I do what the best thing for YOU to do is. You are the expert at you, not me.”

“I’m sorry, Ezra, but that is not much help. If I am the expert in this situation, we are both in trouble.”

“You are much more competent than you think. Truly. The wisest thing to do is the best thing for YOU to do. You must proceed at your own pace. If you push ahead before you are strong enough to start the quest, you won’t make as much progress. On the other hand, if you are ready to move forward but postpone, you will meet with frustration and despair of your wasted opportunities. You decide.”

Picclapena and Ezra stood in companionable silence in the dark. Picclapena scowled and pondered hard. Ezra let her.

“I think I will go back up in that tree until morning so those vicious little churlas can’t get me. There was a handy little notch in the branches up there that will give me a place to sleep safely. Then, when the sky lights up, I will start trying to find the magic to bring back to Nieveaux.”

“That sounds like a sensible plan. Remember, though, you do not have to find anything magic to bring back to Nieveaux- just something that will make life better there.”

“But isn’t that a kind of magic in itself?” asked Picclapena.

“Yes, I guess you do have something there. Anyway, good night.”

Ezra turned and began to walk into the darkness.

“Wait, wait… where are you going?” cried the princess.

“Oh, I’ll be around if you need me. I am just going to do a few things.” Then, Ezra was gone.

Picclapena climbed into the tree and arranged herself in the notch as comfortably as she could. The tree was hard and unforgiving. The bark was rough. Her hair caught on branches and leaves as she tried to snuggle into a familiar sleeping position. Shifting and wiggling, Picclapena realized how much she missed the satin pillows and quilted blankets on her cuddly, bouncy bed in the palace. As she stared out into the dark, clouded sky, she felt sobs simmering in her gut. Tears began to ooze from her eyes and the pain in her stomach started spreading through her ribs and heart. Her sides started pressing in on her and her throat tightened. The sobs constricted to make their way into her head. When they finally released themselves, they were tight, dense, and sharp-edged. She sobbed into the night, but no one could hear her.

Just as the sobs were wearing Picclapena out and exhausting her to sleep, a cloud passed over the sky above her. In the wake of the cloud, a skyscape of stars appeared. Picclapena had never seen how brilliantly the stars could sparkle when piercing through a pure black sky. Her sobs subsided and her eyelids fluttered closed.

When the sun woke her the next morning, Picclapena clumsily climbed down the tree. She was not sure how to proceed with her quest. She felt rested, but hungry and empty. She had no real idea how to start searching for magic to bring back to Nieveaux, but she was fairly certain that she would not find it sitting in a tree. She heard the noises of a community in the distance and began walking towards them. As she walked away from the trees, further from the Edge of the Curve and further from Nieveaux, she saw a small village. She headed purposely towards the village, hoping to find food and guidance. She was certain that anyone would surely assist her when they learned she was the Princess of Nieveaux.

When she got close to the village, Picclapena hesitated. She felt anxious and shy about approaching anyone in the village. Supposing the villagers were not willing to provide help to the Princess of Nieveaux? Supposing the villagers had never heard of Nieveaux? What would happen? She paused by a small creek near the village. She found that she was quite thirsty, so she sat down and cupped her hands to gather a drink of water from the creek. As she drank, she realized she had never been so thirsty in all her life. She drank and she drank, and she drank until she could drink no more, but she was still thirsty. When she paused to catch her breath, she noticed that her arm was throbbing. There were some brambly bushes by the side of the creek. She looked closer and saw that they were thorny and tangled. However, at the very center of the brambly mess of bush, she saw that there were some shiny, luscious looking blackberries growing. The berries were almost as big as Picclapena’s fist.

Picclapena gingerly wove her hand amongst the brambles to pick a blackberry. Each time she tried; her hand caught on a thorny vine. Her skin caught and tore each time she pushed forward towards a blackberry. The streaks on her hands began to sting. They made angry lines on her skin. Picclapena began to weep in frustration. She sat cross-legged next to the blackberry bush and cried in despair. She was so intent on crying, she did not notice that she had company in the blackberry thicket. Finally, she heard a cooing noise and looked up to find a whole flock of churlas staring at her. One by one, their brilliant white fur changed to bright pink. Many of the churlas already eyed her greedily, their mouths open to bare their deadly teeth.

There were no trees in sight and Picclapena had no idea how to escape. She wondered if she really even wanted to escape. This world outside Nieveaux was dangerous and scary. She was far from home. She was hungry and thirsty. She was alone. There was nothing for her anymore. Maybe it would be best if she simply sat still and let the churlas get her. She had just about made up her mind to succumb when one of the still white churlas turned away from her and towards the other churlas. This lead churla made a snarling noise and the other churlas shrank away. Once the others had all disappeared, the lead churla turned back to face Picclapena. He cooed and gurgled menacingly at her, slinking towards her. Then, he climbed onto her lap and snuggled against her body. He let out a final grunt of satisfaction and curled himself into a ball as he fell asleep cuddled against Picclapena’s abdomen.

Picclapena did not know what to do but she reasoned that it probably was not a clever idea to wake a sleeping churla. She sat quietly, pondering her options, and trying to evolve a plan. She was still very hungry and very thirsty. She still had no idea how to find any magic to take back to Nieveaux. She still did not know if the people in the village, if she was ever able to escape the churla, would be friendly or not.

The churla eventually awoke.

“Hello,” said the churla.

“You talk?” exclaimed Picclapena.

“Of course I talk. I am a churla.”

“I didn’t know churlas talked,” explained Picclapena.

“Of course you didn’t. No one does. No one ever gets close enough to find out that we talk. Not that I blame them. Most of those churlas are not very nice.”

“I’ll say! Churlas have almost eaten me twice in the last couple of days! I am so scared of them. They are so dangerous and ferocious!”

“Oh? Am I so dangerous and ferocious?” asked the churla.

“You don’t seem to be… but why aren’t you trying to eat me?”

“Not all the churlas are the same, little girl. You are right about most of them. They look adorable, but once you get close to them, they transform. There is a poisonous substance that ignites in their bodies when they attack. It turns their fur pink. They tear their prey to bits with their sharp, serrated teeth. The poison that turns their fur pink also paralyzes and poisons their prey. There is a strain of mutant churlas, though. We do not have the gene for producing the poison. We hang out with the toxic churlas for protection, but we do not attack. We eat blackberries, not people.”

“Oh my! I am lucky you were with that flock of churlas, aren’t I? Thank you so much! Why did they leave when you turned to them?”

“That’s easy. In churla culture, we mutants are considered the Wise Ones. The toxic churlas are afraid of us. We know them for what they are, so they want to avoid us. We move from flock to flock, being as inconspicuous as we can. Then, when something happens like today, we reveal who we are to the toxic flock. Truth be told, most toxic churlas believe we are as poisonous to them as they are to you. I am not sure if that is true because I never tried to poison any of them.”

“I don’t know what to say!” exclaimed Picclapena.

“Why don’t you start by telling me your name, little girl?” suggested the churla.

“Oh, I’m not a little girl. That is, I am a little girl, but I am also the Princess Picclapena of Nieveaux,” explained Picclapena.

“Never heard of it. I’m not even sure I know what a princess is, but you are welcome to hang out with me anyway. My name is Chomp. It is irony. I don’t chomp.”

“Yes, I see. I am pleased to meet you Chomp. I hope we are going to be great friends.”

“I am sure we will be. For right now, I would sure love to have something to eat. Do you happen to have any blackberries?” replied Chomp.

“Now that you mention it…” began Picclapena, looking ruefully at her tattered hands. “There are tons of blackberries in the brambles over there. They look so luscious. They look much bigger than any blackberries I have ever seen. I am so hungry and the water from the creek did not slake my thirst. I have been trying so hard to gather blackberries, but all I have been able to do is shred my hands.

“You are in luck,” responded Chomp. “Mutant churlas are expert blackberry hunters. Our bones are pliable so we can squeeze ourselves into tiny areas away from thorns. Our skin is tough and resistant to prickles. If we do hurt ourselves on the brambles, we heal immediately. Let me get us some blackberries.”

Picclapena watched as Chomp wiggled under the brambles and disappeared into the thatch. When he emerged, he carried a large blackberry in his mouth. He left it at Picclapena’s feet and went back to retrieve a blackberry for himself. They ate their meal companionably. Picclapena found that the blackberry completely satisfied both her hunger and the ever-present thirst. When they finished eating, Picclapena stretched out on the grass, relaxing for the first time since she ventured Outside the Curve. With Chomp to protect her from the toxic churlas, she felt safe. Chomp snuggled next to her. Picclapena told him the whole strange story of Nieveaux and the Curve, Ezra, and her quest, and all the things she ever wanted to tell anyone. Chomp listened quietly until they both fell asleep.

When Picclapena woke up, she saw she was not alone. Chomp was still there, but Ezra had also appeared.

“Hello,” she said. “I wondered when you would show up. You said you would be here when I needed you. I kind of needed you yesterday.”

“You look okay to me. Looks like you found a friend,” Ezra observed.

“Yes, this is Chomp. He is a mutant churla who eats blackberries. He saved me from a flock of toxic churlas. He’s my friend now.”

“Good. I knew you would be fine. You have resources. You have skills. You should be proud of yourself. What’s next on the plan?”

“I still need to find some magic to bring back to Nieveaux. Chomp is pretty magical, but I am not sure if having a churla- even a mutant one- in Nieveaux would really make life better. Maybe Chomp has some ideas on where I can look.”

“I’m right here,” Chomp muttered at them. “Yes, I have some ideas. It has to be up to you to figure out what you want and get it, but I may be able to point you in a direction.”

“The right direction?” asked Picclapena.

“Maybe. That rather depends on you, doesn’t it?” Chomp replied crossly. He gurgled irritably. Churlas, even non-toxic ones, do not like being woken from a nap.

Ezra smiled and nodded. “I think you are exactly right, Chomp. It sounds like a great adventure, though. A churla and a princess on a quest for magic. This I have to see. Do you mind if I come along?”

“I think perhaps you had better,” answered Picclapena.

Have an adventurous day! See you next week..

Terri/Dorry 🙂

Next To Nieveaux- Part One

Last week, I told you about a story I told at the general meeting of my church women’s group.  I mentioned that the story I told was the extremely abridged version of a longer narrative I wrot a couple of years ago. I asked you if you would be interested in reading a serialized version of the original story.  One person responded with a resounding “Yes, please.”  To show you that I do not need to be asked twice, here we go…

Part One: Introducing Princess Picclopena

There is no dark in the kingdom of Nieveaux. The sun and the moon and the stars all shine simultaneously around the clock. It snows there frequently, although most of the silver white fluttery powder melts before it leaves the sky. Only a thin layer of snow blankets the ground, but that blanket never goes away. It does not matter how warm the sun gets, that layer of snow never quite recedes. The people in Nieveaux live with sparkle in their eyes.

Nieveaux’s government is virtually nonexistent. There is no need for one. People keep to themselves, meticulously following the laws of civilized society wrought over centuries of Nieveaux culture. No one ever comes from outside the kingdom to cause trouble. In fact, no one ever comes from outside the kingdom, period. Nominally, King Noble and his wife Queen Theodora rule the kingdom as benevolent, if somewhat indifferent, monarchs. Their daughter, Princess Picclapena, is the culmination of their lives’ work. The only real job for the monarchs of Nieveaux is to produce and preserve more monarchs.

When Noble and Theodora married, there was a collective sigh of relief in Nieveaux. Noble was the first in line to the throne but had shown no interest in marrying throughout his twenties. Right after his 30th birthday, he met a beautiful, kind, accomplished young lady named Mariette. Mariette had a pure, open heart that generated love effortlessly. Noble began to pay court to Mariette. This scandalized his parents. His actions also scandalized the small fraction of the Nieveaux population who paid any attention to anything beyond their own  front doors. Mariette was not of royal blood. Also, Mariette and her family lived at the Edge of the Curve, the official boundary of Nieveaux. No one in Nieveaux knew what lay beyond the Edge of the Curve, but the people of Nieveaux believed that citizens who lived too close to the boundary were tainted by the kingdoms of the Outside.

Noble defied his parents and the community by continuing his courtship. He finally proposed a union between his royal house and Mariette’s humble family. While such a marriage of unequals was the closest thing to trouble that Nieveaux had seen in generations, the families eventually agreed. The work of a monarch is to produce monarchs and, at 30, it was long past time that Noble got to work.

Noble and Mariette floated along on the amazement of their love for some months. There were elaborate preparations for a wedding worthy of a prince of the realm. Mariette’s family was not able to match the opulence of a royal wedding, but they gathered flowers and ribbons and lace to make gorgeous bouquets for every pre-wedding event. The day of the wedding rehearsal, Mariette went out to gather fresh flowers to grace the altar. A severe snowstorm arose. That day, the snow did not melt quickly. The storm raged and flurried all around her for hours. She never returned. Mariette’s family and Noble went looking for Mariette, but it was useless. All they found was a bouquet of white roses, trimmed with icicles and evergreen. The bouquet appeared to have been dropped next to the largest tree in Nieveaux, thrown from Mariette’s hands as the wind and snow threw her against the tree. Her people had to assume that Mariette was blinded by the snow and disoriented. They believed she sustained a blow to her head that caused her to lose consciousness and freeze to death. They decided that they must wait until the snow in the area melted to a reasonable level so they could excavate to find her body.

The snow in that area of Nieveaux never melted from that day forward. Elsewhere in Nieveaux, the topography returned to its pre-storm state. There was a thin layer of snow all over the ground all the time, but it would have been easy to unearth anything covered beneath it. In the Curve of the Edge area, however, the snow stayed mounded. Another strange coincidence was that the bouquet of white flowers stayed as fresh as the day Mariette picked them. The evergreen never wilted. The icicles never melted. Her family kept the bouquet in a protective case to always remind them of Mariette’s beauty and pure goodness.

Noble locked himself away in his castle for a month after Mariette’s death. When his family and his people told him he must marry, he refused. It was as if all the vibrancy and power he had within him died with Mariette. As time went on, though, he did tire of living within his own head. He came out of his locked room and began to go about the normal daily routine of a dashing young monarch. He was rich, popular, and quite the catch. He knew that he was born to marry. He also knew he would never love again the way he had loved Mariette. He decided that he might as well marry to please his family and his kingdom.

Noble decide to propose to Theodora. It was a highly satisfactory match in the eyes of the people of Nieveaux. Theodora was Noble’s third cousin and was fifth in line to the throne in her own right. She lived in the third castle on the right from Noble’s palace. She was beautiful and accomplished. She was poised and intelligent. She was born to be a queen. Noble found her to be an attractive and pleasant companion.

Once again, a royal wedding was in the works in Nieveaux. This time, everything went according to plan. The bride was stunning. The groom beamed. The decorations of gold and silver and precious gems gleamed… but the flowers were not quite as special as they had been for Mariette’s wedding. That night, when Noble and Mariette arrived at the Palace in the Pines, where they were to honeymoon, Noble found a fresh white rose bouquet, trimmed with icicles and evergreens, on the doorstep.

Time passed. Noble ascended to the throne. The kingdom celebrated a magnificent coronation for King Noble and Queen Theodora. They were the “it” couple, lauded at every turn. It seemed that the king’s sad romantic history had retreated into nostalgia. King Noble and Queen Theodora seemed very happy together. The kingdom ran just as it always had, to everyone’s satisfaction.

Everyone became even happier one day when the royal herald announced that Queen Theodora had given birth to a healthy baby girl. Her father named her Princess Picclapena. Princess Picclapena went to live in her own household, meticulously cared for by servants appointed by her parents to keep her safe. Her governess, Lady Agnes, guarded her fiercely from all things ferocious. Because Princess Picclapena was so precious to the royal house and no one wanted to risk her getting hurt or sick or endangered in any way, she only left her personal palace on rare state occasions. Even in the gardens of her palace, servants watched her play to make sure she stayed happy, healthy, and safe. King Noble and Queen Theodora visited her each day in the early evening hours. Picclapena loved that time of day. She always put on her coziest nightgown and wrapped herself in her quilted satin robe. Her queen would bundle the princess onto her lap in a rocking chair and quietly rock her to the sound of silence. The atmosphere was silent because King Noble and Queen Theodora did not speak to their daughter for fear of scaring her or hurting her. Since her parents did not speak, Picclapena did not either. She just snuggled close to her mother while her father looked on with an incredulous smile on his face. When Princess Picclapena went to bed, her parents went back to their castle until the next evening.

Princess Picclapena’s world was not always silent. Every day, her tutors came to teach her the great history and culture of Nieveaux. Picclapena learned the story of the royal succession, the importance of safeguarding the monarchy, and the need for caution in all things. She learned not to open the door to strangers. She learned not to question the great truths of the Nieveaux philosophers. She learned not to play too hard or jump too high or laugh too loudly. She learned to never leave her palace grounds without her parents. She especially learned that she must never, ever go beyond the Edge of the Curve. Picclapena would often watch the world of Nieveaux pass by outside the palace gates and wonder what it would be like to wander the kingdom on her own. Sometimes, she even thought she heard the far-off sound of music playing.

Whenever she mentioned her dream of life beyond the gates to her tutors, they explained that such a thing was not possible, nor even desirable. Clever, well-brought-up  princesses understood that they could have everything their hearts desired inside the palace grounds and there was nothing to be gained from the risk entailed with leaving her sanctuary. Picclapena was not sure this was true, but she liked to believe she was clever, and she knew she was well-brought up. After a while, she stopped asking about the world outside the palace gates.

Finally, an exciting day came. Princess Picclapena was going to join her parents for her very first official public appearance since her christening. She was to cut the ribbon at the opening of a new ice-skating rink at the center of the kingdom. The ceremony would take place in the evening when the second star twinkled. All day long, people came to the princess’s palace to prepare for her outing. Her tutors came to instruct her on her royal duties at the event. The seamstress came to fit her new dress. The hairdresser came to freshen her curls and change the color of the ribbons in her hair. The cobbler came with brand new slippers to match her new dress. A florist came, delivering a corsage of beautiful flowers to wear on her wrist. Princess Picclapena saw more people on skating rink day than she had seen in the entire year combined. She watched excitedly by the palace gates, as they swung open and closed multiple times. Once, she even jumped on the gate and began to swing on it. Her governess, Lady Agnes, quickly and gently removed her from the hazard.

Not to be deterred, Picclapena kept watching the hubbub at the gate. As she watched, she noticed a small white puppy just outside the gate. Delighted, she rushed to pet him, but he ran away before she could reach him. At first, she did not even notice that she was outside the gate completely on her own. Then, she noticed a man standing a few feet from her gate.

“Hello,” he said. “I am Ezra. How are you?”

“I think I am okay,” replied the princess. “How are you?”

“I’m very well,” Ezra responded. “Who are you and how did you get here?”

“What do you mean? I am Princess Picclapena, and I am standing right outside my palace,” responded the princess a little irritably.

“Are you sure?” Ezra asked politely, “I don’t see any palace.”

Picclapena looked around and was surprised to see that, in fact, the palace was not in sight.

“Oh no,” she cried, “I must have followed that little white puppy further than I intended. I have no idea where I am. And I am supposed to cut the ribbon at the ice-skating rink opening this evening!”

“Well, I might be able to help you,” Ezra said. “I can tell you that you are just next to the Edge of the Curve. It is quite a pleasant place to be. It may not seem like it to some people, but I think you will like it if you give it a chance.”

“But I am a royal princess! And I am not supposed to leave the palace grounds by myself. I am certainly not supposed to get this close to the Edge of the Curve!” Princess Picclapena retorted.

“Why not?” asked Ezra, quite reasonably.

“I’m just not. It isn’t safe. I have to be extra careful because I will one day be the monarch of Nieveaux. In the palace, there is no danger. Everyone is kind to me. Everyone makes sure I am comfortable. I know exactly what to do.”

“Oh, so what do you do?” Ezra asked.

“I, I, I, uh, I can’t explain it very well. Mostly, I am attended by my tutors to learn things so that I can be a good queen of Nieveaux… you know, history, culture, how to behave properly. I am particularly good at behaving properly,” Picclapena replied doubtfully.

“Hmm… it doesn’t sound very interesting.”

“It might not always be interesting. My governess tells me that it isn’t important that life be interesting or fun or exciting. It is important that I remain safe, learn how to do my duty, and be a good queen one day.”

“And what does a good queen do?” asked Ezra.

“There are Things.” Picclapena proclaimed importantly.

“Like what? Your father is king, right? What does he do?”

“He mostly just proclaims things. He is a very smart man and knows the answers.”

“The answers to what?”

“What is Right. He never talks to me, so I do not know exactly.”

“He never talks to you? At all?”

“No, my mother and father want to make sure I am not hurt or scared. If they talk, they might tell me something that will harm me. I did hear them talking once, though, as they left my palace to go back home.”

“What did you hear them say?”

“Hmm… let me think. I don’t remember exactly. My father was talking rather loudly. He sounded angry. My mother was crying. It had something to do with me, but it was not exactly about me.”

“That sounds confusing.”

“Yes, it was. After that day, I always waited next to the door when my parents left to see if I could hear anything else. I could not hear the words clearly, but I often heard snippets of tones. It was like faraway music. Sometimes, their voices tinkled like bells, and I could hear laughter. Most of the time, though, my father’s voice was like timpani and cymbals, crashing percussively against the halls of the palace. My mother’s sound was an oboe- mournful and piercing.”

“Did you ever ask anyone about what you heard?”

“Oh no, I couldn’t do that.”

“Why not?”

“It just isn’t done in Nieveaux.”

“Well, that’s true enough. Don’t you think it would be nice to know, though?”

“Yes, but I am sure I never will.”

“Hmmm… maybe not. What do you want to do now?”

“I don’t really know. I should go back to the palace. I would like to find that puppy, though, before I go back. Could you help me do that?”

“Sure. I know exactly where that puppy would be. It wasn’t a puppy, though.”

“It looked like a puppy!”

“Yes, but things are not always what they look like.”

Picclapena thought things were always what they looked like, but she did not want to be impolite and contradict.

“So, if it wasn’t a puppy, what was it?”

“Oh, those creatures are called churlas. They live right outside the curve.”

“OUTSIDE the curve?! Oh no, am I outside the curve? I thought you said we were at the Edge of the Curve.”

“Yes, yes… you are still inside. The churlas often creep into Nieveaux from the outside to check us out and then scuttle back outside the curve.”

“They must be very dangerous.”

“Do they look dangerous? What makes you think they must be dangerous?”

“No, they don’t look dangerous at all. They look cute and fluffy and sweet, and I want to pet one. I am sorry, Ezra, but they could not actually live outside the curve. Nothing but dangerous things live out there.”

“Well, you know best, of course,” replied Ezra, looking quite bemused. “Perhaps we could go over to see the Curve and you can show me how I am wrong. I am fairly certain we will see some churlas right beyond the Edge.”

“Is that safe?” asked Picclapena doubtfully. “I mustn’t go outside the Edge.”

“You should still be able to see those churlas, even at the Edge. However, if you don’t want to go, I quite understand.”

Ezra began to walk away towards the Edge of the Curve. Picclapena hesitated and then followed.

“After all,” she said, “there can’t be anything too dangerous as long as I stay inside Nieveaux.”

“You can stay as far from the Edge as you wish,” Ezra reassured her.

They walked in silence until Ezra exclaimed, “There it is!”

“What?” asked Picclapena. “I don’t see anything.”

“The Curve! Look, it is right over there.”

Picclapena looked quite carefully but did not see anything. Slowly, she moved forward until she finally noticed a small shimmer in the sky above her, creating a prism of multi-colored melted sunlight all around her.

“Is this it? Is this the Curve?”

“Yes, it is. Be careful, though; you do not want to get too close.”

Picclapena stood with her head bent upwards and squinted at the beautiful designs the prism of the Curve made. At first, they seemed to dance and morph and tease her senses. Then, as if by magic, her eyes cleared, and she could see outside the Edge of the Curve. Sure enough, there were churlas playing in the field right outside the Edge.

“Oh, there they are! You were right. They do live out there. Oh, how cute! I want one! I want to pet one!”

“Well, you can if you really want to.”

“How?”

“You could try calling them and see if one will breech the Curve and come inside. It probably will not work, though. Churlas only go where they want to go when they want to go. If you really want to pet one, you’ll have to venture outside the Curve. I do it all the time. It isn’t so bad. You can do it if you want to. Oh look! There is one of the churlas right outside the Curve over there.”

Stay tuned for the next exciting installment- Part Two: Princess Picclopena Breaches The Curve!

Have a royal day!

Terri/Dorry 😊

Inquiring Minds Want To Know

Last week, I presented a storytelling entertainment for the general meeting of my church women’s group. I am not really sure why the program chairperson thought that random storytelling should be on the program for this kind of meeting or why I was the person asked to provide said storytelling. When our program-scheduling chairperson asked me to do this last June, I debated with myself, but ultimately agreed. I kept telling myself, “You don’t have to worry about it- it isn’t happening until next May.”  I told myself that for eleven months. I stopped saying it only because “next May” was suddenly in two weeks.

Despite my apparent procrastination, my brain did mull over the project regularly in the eleven months during which I was in conscious denial.  The first and most critical decision I had to make was what story I wanted to tell. Something in me really wanted to tell a particular story, Next to Nieveaux. I wrote Next to Nieveaux a couple of years ago, at the suggestion of my life coach. There is a lot of history behind this story, so part of me felt squeamish about sharing it. Although it is fairy tale and is certainly fantasy, it is MY story in many ways. While very few people would recognize my life episodes behind the veil of the story’s plot development or understand the “inside jokes” (“inside” meaning “inside my own little world,) the idea of telling the story left me feeling very vulnerable and exposed. Something in me, however, could not quite retreat from the idea. I decided to lead with the weakest part of me and let Princess Picclopena of Nieveaux make her public debut.

The next hurdle I faced was that my original story was, depending on your viewpoint and generosity of spirit, either incredibly rich and intricate or incredibly wordy and tedious. Frankly, the short story was more like a novella. Now, I am not always generous in spirit towards myself, but I have to say that I saw the story as incredibly rich and intricate. That made cutting it down to a digestible smidgeon of narrative suitable for a verbal retelling in the context of the final Episcopal Church Women meeting of the season much more difficult. I liked it all. I couldn’t decide what to excise. After numerous fits and starts at editing, I finally took a step back. I decided which of the several key themes I most wanted to communicate. I ruthlessly released charming sub-plots and witty character-developing repasts. I wrote down four or five episodes that had to happen for the story to present the key theme in a sensical manner. Then, I let myself go. I stopped writing stuff down. I stopped editing. I stopped obsessing over some random time constraint I had in my head. I told myself the story a few times during the week before the presentation, just to get a feel for the flow and rhythm. Then, I trusted I understood my story well enough to be able to tell it just from what I knew without needing more structure. After a, Next to Nieveaux is my story in the sense that I wrote it and it is my story in the sense that I have lived some version of it.

The day of the storytelling, I just started talking- telling the story and reading the audience. They seemed to absolutely be coming along for the journey with me. As it turned out, I did not have to worry about time. I spoke for a little over 20 minutes and the audience seemed engaged and willing to keep listening. Instead of mourning the richness I left out, I actually kinda enjoyed having so many random “inside joke” Easter eggs that no one would understand except me. I found out that I like being a woman of mystery.

Now that the event is over, I have been thinking about sharing the original Next to Nieveaux story in all its questionable glory.  I could do that by serializing the full-length version over several weeks on this blog. What do you think? Is that something that would interest you? What are your thoughts? Please send me a sign from cyberspace!

Have a fantasty-istic day!

Terri/Dorry 😊

So what’s the verdict? Would you like to read the unvarnished and unabridged truth about the trials and tribulations of Princess Picclopena of Nieveaux? Please share your perspective by leaving a comment. In the alternative, please email me at terriretirement@gmail.com.

Mother Maybe

As we approach Mother’s Day this weekend, I wanted to acknowledge all the mothers in my life. As those of you who have read my book Puppies, Guppies, and Letting Go by Dorry Curran (Puppies, Guppies, and Letting Go: Curran, Dorry: 9798842188574: Amazon.com: Books) are aware, I had a fantastic mother with whom I was very close.  Since I never had the experience of being a mother, I find observing and admiring mothers to be an intriguing pastime. In past blog posts, I have discussed the diversity of being a good mother. The notion that women can approach the job of mothering so differently and yet be so beautifully effective at raising good people fascinates me. Motherhood is a vocation. It is a vocation of many different emphases and priorities. I think it is fair to say that almost all mothers do their best to raise their children to become self-sufficient people who live with integrity, purpose, satisfaction, love, and joy. I know that all the mothers I know definitely fall into that category. Certainly, no mother is effective ALL the time. And I suspect that all the mothers I know are doing a much better job than they think they are.

Some mothers may not try their best and, of course, even the ones who are doing their best might not be effective. This is a heartbreaking truth, but it is a truth. For those women, I hope they find grace in the larger community to help them and to help their children. Good individuals create a good society. Therefore, all of us have a stake at supporting moms.

One thing that I have really learned in my own case is that the need to be mothered does not go away when you hit a certain age. Or when the mother who raised you dies. Most of the people in my social circle no longer have their moms with them in this life. Most of us went through a process over the years, maybe especially those who had children of their own, of loosening our grip on being mothered and taking on a more independent and then a more caregiving role. For many of us, that caregiver role extended to providing care to the mother who used to care for us. It is a natural and necessary process. It still doesn’t mean that our souls do not yearn for mothering.

So how do we fill that need to be mothered? U am 65-years old. My mother mothered me for many, many years past the day I turned 18. In the last year of my mother’s life, she lived in a skilled nursing facility. She was bed-bound due to a catastrophic stroke. Even before the stroke, she was physically impaired to a great degree. After the stroke, the cognitive disintegration was constant. Most of the last year of her life, she could not speak at all. The only way she could communicate was through body language. Even in that compromised state, my mother mothered me. I remember coming to visit one day and tripping on the concrete outside the facility. I fell to the ground and spilled the chocolate milkshake I was bringing her. When I got into her room, I was obviously distressed, although trying to remain composed. My mother, even in the belly of her decline when speech was almost completely gone, summoned all her remaining ability, and said quite emphatically “Go home.”  It was clear to me that she could see how exhausted and defeated I was and wanted me to rest. Sometimes I think that one moment was the reason she struggled and lingered in the shadowland between life and death for so long. We both needed to have that re-assertion of our mother/daughter dynamic before she left me.

After my mother died, I leaned into other mothers to fill the gap for me. I can think of several older women who treated me with the gentleness, wisdom, and validation that my own mother lavished upon me. However, as I have aged, so have they. Several of them have also died in the last seven years since my mother passed. To some extent, I am again experiencing that awful tearing away as they declined. I pour love back on them. I’m privileged to do so, but it is still a mournful process.

I’m learning now that I don’t need someone old enough to be my mother to be mothered. There are several women around my own age or, in some cases, YOUNGER, who gather me to themselves to protect, teach, support, and love me in a way that satisfies the yearning my mother used to assuage so organically. It feels instinctive and unconditional. It has been hard for me to understand it, but I lap it up like a starving cat will lap up milk. It is also teaching me that I, too, can be that for others. Most people think I have a very motherly energy about me. It is something that I hid and tamped down for a long time because it felt somehow audacious and intrusive. What right and what qualifications did I have to presume to mother anyone? Now, as I have basked in the benefit of being on the receiving end of that mother energy from others, it strikes me that many people have such a strong need for that kind of love, I’m better than nothing. The response has become organic and instinctive for me, as well. When I stop editing that response, the caring overflows and I mother adults. I hope I am not overbearing or intrusive about it, but I figure that I should listen to my instincts and be led by the Holy Spirit.

I have never birthed a child.  I have never adopted a child. I don’t even have much experience with children. But, in some ways, I am still a mother… maybe.

Have a wonderful Mother’s Day, everyone! Especially to all of you who mother me!

Terri/Dorry 😊

Do you have someone who mothers you as an adult? How do you feel about it? Please share your perspective by leaving a comment. In the alternative, you can email me at terriretirement@gmail.com.